Depressed!

One Word, Depressed!


I had a blast five days in Beijing. But my good memories is ruin by result. Truly a downfall. Guess i played too much and wast focused in sem1. My dad blame me being too active in non-academic stuff. the society, me being secretary here and there. seriously, this time i dont blame on that. i blame myself. i played too much. wasting time on super unimportant things. a real WTF!! damn~~


where is the superhardworking me??
the old super ignorance-is-bliss me??
the one that act like doesnt care but do care??
i dont blame others if they do not understand me because im the one that build the wall around me.
i dont want too get closed or emotionally-attached because i hate the ending where we hate to part away.
i know thats life but my heart is too fragile~~


I wish next year would be a better year.
I hope I can be a good muslim, daughter, friend, student.
I dont want to burden my anyone~


peace off