Thursday, July 7, 2011

Lirik lagi dan lagi

Salam.

Jari jemari ini menari-nari di atas papan kekunci (aceceh) untuk menulis lagu satu lirik selepas lamanya tidak ada idea untuk sebuah lirik. aku rasa insecure (tak selamat) Tak selamat bila kat dalam rumah sendiri tengok kucar-kacir dekat negara lain. negara yang berperang, negara yang dilanda bencana alam. negara sendiri bencana politik. ak terfikir hidup ak ni sebagai remaja xkan nak duduk pikir pasal lelaki, pasal orang lain. (bukan nak jadik selfish tapi terpaksa) agak2nya sebab ada org pernah mengkhianati kepercayaan ak(mcm drama, ini kawan buat taw), mak ak pun nak ajar berdikari. berdiri atas 2kaki sendiri. nak cerita masalah kat org lain pun dah xsedap hati. kot2 dia pikir "ish, ni org carik ak time nk cerita sedih je.cuba tanya ak sihat ke, dah makan ke, nak belanja makan ke" (cerita realiti, sebab org selalu buat kat ak). lagik satu jika aku cerita, macam membuka pekung di dada kan. jadik ceritalah yang pada Maha Esa. bajet2 bajet tak tahan menulis lirik. 

(panjangnya mukadimah) lirik ni pasal kita nak tinggalkan seseorang atau suatu tempat atau zon selesa sebab nak capai satu yang lebih bermakna. capai impian ke apa2 lah. (because sky is the limit). jadi silalah nikmati,

Dancing in the rain

c/o;
cuz I got nowhere to go,
and I forgot if I have too,
soo, just let me,
dancing in the rain,

cuz I’m not feeling okay,
and I aint suppose to,
so, just let me,
dancing in the rain,

I want to go there,
Hold your hands,
Ran to the sea,
Feeling like nothing,
Can break us apart,

You always there,
Why you had to leave,
I was having so much fun,
Can I do it alone now

So I ask myself again ,
And again,
Do I, do I,
Miss you?

c/o;

I want to go there,
Push away my fears,
Ran away for solitude,
Nothing can hold me back,
Can break me apart,

You used to be there,
Now you are gone,
I’m still having fun,
I can do it alone now,

So I ask myself again ,
And again,
Do I, do I,
Miss you?

c/o;

I gonna reach the sky,
Even when I cant see the stars,
Going to walk like no tomorrow,
Leave my dark yesterday,
Saying goodbye to you,
To the old me but,
Im still going to remember,
Where I came from,
What I made of,
Why I was alive for days,
How I have been in the past,
Who was me before,
Going the moon,
For my dreams,
But my feet is still on the ground,

c/o;

xoxo,
zahrina

p/s; lagu ni rentak dia ala2, lagu bruno mars, marry you. rentak lagu yang rasa nak menari tapi takat hentak2 kaki dan jari2 ketuk atas meja. ak dgn SEMANGATtnya membayangkan video lagu ini macam 3 watak.
1. seorang perempuan yang baru lepas putus cinta monyet sebab pakwe dia main kayu banyak sangat dan nak move on.
2. orang yang buat kerja dan dah bosan sebab xpernah dapat naik pangkat dan ambil keputusan nak berhenti kerja. buat sesuatu di luar garisan norma.
3. seseorang yang baru kehilangan suami. jadik ibu tunggal pada anak2. move on macam dari surirumah ke org yg ada kerjaya. 

muahahaha. imagination can take you anywhere. To make it real, you just have to put it where it should be.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Its hellaa looooooong holiday for university student kan?

Salam.

Dah lamaaaaaaaa gila xmenconteng kat blog ak ni. buat followers yang follow sian pula. (xpasti if ada lagik follower ke x?) hahaa. sekarang, ak dah start cuti sem. macam xpercaya nak masuk tahun 2 dah next sem. oh tidak, saya bakal ada junior. hahaa. banyak benda yang bermain kat pikiran bila dapat junior. buli mereka jom! hahaa. nanti bulan 7 bakal mencecah 20 tahun. oh tidak buat kali kedua. rasa cam dah T_ _.

Aktiviti di rumah? jadik maid fulltime. kemas, sidai, dan lipat baju. kemas rumah. basuh dan tangkup pinggan. apa lagik erh? jadik pa mak ak. dia bawak ak ke hulu ke hilir teman dia beli tepung gula. yada3. okeh la tuh. dapat la tengok orang dari duk terperuk di rumah. hehee. jadik jika ada yang berminat nak hire maid, boleh la telefon saya di 014- 244 tekan2 xdapat. LOL. (saya tak dapat nak kerja mak saya xkaci. huhuu)


owh,dan juga ak ambil lesen memandu. hehee. esok dah nak pergi bengkel amali dan teori. test komputer yang sgt hebat. ak yg kerek+pemalas telah gagal sebanyak 2x. yeahhh! hebat kan ak. (malu g nyorok bawah meja jap) okeh, jadik ak yg 'hebat' ni telah tramek kali ke3 pun lulus. yeahhh. yang kecewa 2x gagal sebab markah 41 (markah lulus 42). time tuh rasa cam nak pukul diri sendiri sebab rasa diri 'hebat' sangat. LOL. okeh la esok nak pergi bengkel tu pun ak rasa cuak. huuhuu. ak tak terbayang macam mana ak jadik driver nanti. adakah terlalu hebat laju sampai langgar semua lampu isyarat or lambat sangat yang mementingkan keselamatan diri dan pemandu lain. hahaa. cuaks sangat2. XDD


Holiday 4bulan nak buat apa? ambil lesen memandu, jadik maid fulltime, asah skil memasak. haaa, bulan puasa nanti ak kerja kat kedai bahan kek mak ak. jadik siapa2 nak yang nak beli bahan2 kek dan biskut yang duk area putra or sekitar cam bangi, puchong, serdang dan sewaktu dengannya. boleh datang kedai mak ak. ak kaci diskaun? xdapat sangat. tapi yang pasti halal. inshaAllah. supportlah industri orang melayu dan bukan nya non melayu. (bagi org melayu) telinga rasa berdesing bila ada customer kata "kenapa saya beli kat tuuuuut lagik murah?" bak kata, mak saya. kami dpt murah jual la murah. dapat mahal jual la mahal. yang pasti semua dapat kat sini inshaAllah halal. pesanan penaja dri HNZ sdn bhd.

nak share satu article kt yahoo pasal skin care on only 10 minutes every day.
http://my.custom.yahoo.com/amazingyou/article/gorgeous-skin-in-just-10-minutes-a-day-648

okeh,selamat hari selasa, selamat bercuti. dan oh selamat menonton asmara episod terakhir.
 salam :D




Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Dont be angry to me. Heh

Salam.
Hey3. How are you guys doing? I hope everyone having doing fine. Why I write this post? Humm. Because lately too many want a piece of me. Too many people ask too much and expect too much. Heh. Im just human. I guess because I always act like I dont care doing anything for others. hey, let me tell you tell the real reason. Im no saint nor goody-two-shoes okeh? Im doing others without care because I know karma works so well around me. Then,I never expect others to do things for me. Because everyone is so selfish like me. Hey, take a chill pill. Because right now I want to tear myself in pieces. Im trying to be helpful as possible so dont leave all your works because Im super Zahrina. heh.

Hey, people. Right now, Im the chief editor of 1st college magazine, secretary cc(my course), secretary cc dinner, deputy director of II of baksis(they tried to put me as secretary. heh,damn!), a rugby touch player, a student, a muslimah n a daugther. Come on people, Im a masochist gipang(gila pangkat) person. But believe me 50% of this above Im chosen out of my will. Im trying to do my best in everyone because I never expect anyone to help me or support me. And the minute I start to expect on others meaning relying on others which is just say wrong because we as muslim only should rely on our creator. Im really am trying. Believe me!

And about my friends in Putra,I really hope them are well. Because Im quite sick of everyone waiting for someone to set up a gathering. And not care about others doing well. You guys are real good in giving your sympathy but I only want to share happiness with you guys. Heh

To my cc coursemates,lets do our best for this fucking critical semester 2. Lets not problems tore us apart. Lets be strong and stick together till the end okeh? Dont let money or anything else. Even if might break up, lets just stop and think about our hard times and LOL times.

So Dear God, pretty please with the cherry on the top. Please gives me and my friends and super strength that I need. Scratch that. Please give everyone that I know a super strength to get through all this hard times. Please keep us faith toward You so strong. Please guide us to be the muslim and muslimah we needed to be.

Toodles people. take care
p/s:Im not all nice and remember if you did purposely do me wrong karma will work around now or later. heh

Monday, January 31, 2011

Hey February!!





Salam.
Hey,its February! Its been a month since we enter 2011. Somehow I still accidentally write the year 2010. Guess Im still kinda stuck in the past. Maybe becuz of him. Thanx to him,i may not find someone dats is much better in my coming days. Who knows what might happen. Its all in Dear God's hand. I hope February brings a better life. Better strength for me to live on,move on. Whatever it needs. To be closer to Him.
Everyone be happy like this colourful balloons
Everyone please be happy and be strong. I could see all my friends here in UPM getting serabut with non-academic works. Hey,im busy and tension. Please dont slash out all your tension your friends especially the touchy one like me. hahaa. Im usually dont give a damn because I know no one give a damn about others life like theirs. But then again, please be chillax and let me say,Welcome to my club. Heh. I hope everyone give their cooperation,I dont care if its not their best but can you at least fake it. Im already tension here. You elect me as your leader because you didnt want to do the job but hey please gimme some hand here. Once you get your job,whether you want it or not act like you want it. Dont wait until others give you the job.

Im currently busy as an SU course to finish board cc, SU for final year dinner(to do lotsa2 of formal letters) and chief of editor of K11. Its the first edition or should I said my first baby. I always have soft spot for journalism. But I dudnt further my studues in it because my dad only gimme 3 option for my career; engineer,doctor and lawyer. Im not good at talking nor reading and remembering. So,hello engineer world!!Hoping I can get my Ir status later. Im going crazy for my dad always want someone to study overseas. So,he is hoping that Ill pass my degree with flying colour so I can get my master and do it oversea. Hey,Im still in my first year. Huhuu.
Kerja yang banyak seronoknya if boleh settle dalam tinggg pastu zap3 buat kerja next pulak. LOL
So, I hope February will bring the old me in matrix. The super hadrworking+dilligent crazy smart ass pants that was licving well without connecting to her bestfriends. Because right now Im currently tired asking others how theyre doing and nobody asked me how I am nowadays. I want to solely dedicate my life to God and my books. Owh,I already got my JPA money.(twice) But I havent buy something that is big like gadget(I have bought my encik Teddy) My encik Teddy, I bought in Mines. I was quite embarrased because couples that pass me by keep peeking. The girlfriends keep poking their boyfriends like "U,I want this one too". I was waiting for someone to buy it for me but that particular someone hasnt appear in my life yet. So,I buy one for myself first.
Encik Teddy besar dia separuh badan ak. Fluffy sangat!!

Right now, I want either a psp, iphone or a Macbook Pro. Huhuu. Im crazy indeed. For PSP, I heard there will be a PSP2 so Im waiting until it comes out and maybe just maybe I will buy it. (I have to pujuk Nazirah so she wont be mad at me because Im buying it before her. Huhuu) For PSP, I want something mobile. The last time I played game on console was Im in my Form 5. For my PSone. I a gamer. Ceyesly.
PSP2. Gila betol sony niyh.
For Macbook Pro 13",Im want to buy my first notebook. Macbook is really convenient and efficient look at this commercial for better comparison. Hehee. Real funny! My friends say there will be new update at April but I not as patient as them. Maybe they will update their new processor from Intel 2 Dual Core to intel i5 or i7. Im guess Im fine without it. Hopefully. Hahaa.


I want my baby now!
Truthfully speaking Im a sucker when it comes to new gadgets. iPhone have a lot of applications. 
Ak akan terus beli iPhone if ada keypad like this bottom one.
Ak mahu ini jugak.
(Ak yang kegilaan sebab dapat banyak duit)
Okey,thats it people. Have a great February. Please Dear God, so kami xkan stress sangat dan xmelampiaskan kemarahan kami kepada kawan2 kami.
Thank you.
XOXO

Friday, December 24, 2010

Depressed!

One Word, Depressed!


I had a blast five days in Beijing. But my good memories is ruin by result. Truly a downfall. Guess i played too much and wast focused in sem1. My dad blame me being too active in non-academic stuff. the society, me being secretary here and there. seriously, this time i dont blame on that. i blame myself. i played too much. wasting time on super unimportant things. a real WTF!! damn~~


where is the superhardworking me??
the old super ignorance-is-bliss me??
the one that act like doesnt care but do care??
i dont blame others if they do not understand me because im the one that build the wall around me.
i dont want too get closed or emotionally-attached because i hate the ending where we hate to part away.
i know thats life but my heart is too fragile~~


I wish next year would be a better year.
I hope I can be a good muslim, daughter, friend, student.
I dont want to burden my anyone~


peace off

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Its 1st Ramadhan!! XD

Salam.
Harini 1 ramadhan. Akhirnya dah sampai jugak bulan ramadhan yang ditunggu-tunggu. Serious taw ak teruja ni. hahaa.. Aku teruja nk merasa berpuasa kt Kolej 11,UPM. Aku rasa bersyukur sangat dapat course yg aku nak. Aku taw mak n abah tak approve sgt ak amek kejuruteraan. Xpe2, mak abah adeq akan buktikan taw!! I know i can. Budak2 course so far alhamdulillah. Semua gila2, wacko belaka.. hahaa. Aku dah ada geng lompat pagar. Macam ni everytime ngidam nk makan fast food boleh pergi je. Eventhough kelas aku ramai chinese tapi aku rasa xdown. Zahrina Muhamad Haitamin never back down from a war without a fight! Aku sangat envy budak2 chinese yg selalu study same2 jge each other. ENVY!! Mak n abah siap pesan "Buat dyewang respect adeq". Erh,friends. Im not a racist okay! Its just that how can they be so minority and so succesful. Ak nak sgt bangsa Melayu pun ada semangat saing camtu. Ak nak bangsa Melayu sukses!! Aduii,aku da merapik.

1 Ramadhan sentiasa bawa memori yang ak rasa gila n confirm tak boleh ak lupa. 3 tahun lepas,masa ak masih bergelar pelajar SBP Integrasi Jempol(damn!) Malam sebelum 2 ramdhan tu, ak, lyana, palish n wani tgh otw nk balik rumah. Kerana kepingin nak merasa 2ramadhan berbuka di rumah,kami tersangkut kat busstop kuala pilah dari pukul2 smpi pukul5 ptg. Gila3. LOL, Pastu, dapatlah merasa berbuka puasa kat ktm seremban. Last2 sampai juga kat putrajaya around 10 kot.

1ramadhan time ak kt KMJ pulak. Ni kes nak nak balik umah jugak. Sampai2 kat tangkak pukul 4 camtu. Bas straight ke serdang tiada. So, kami gatal2 nak balik jugak kami naik bas ke MC(Melaka Central). Naik bas lompat bayangkanlah berapa banyak kali dia berhenti. Sampai kat Melaka dah maghrib. Kat sana siap hp Daya boleh hilang. Rupa2nya dlm beg Nadia. Kelakar gila,ak siap tinggal pesan n sms tinggal karangan pendek dlm tu. LOL.

1ramadhan semalam. Kami satu CC pergi ramai2 panjat pagat then pergi kfc. Buat jahat xingat dunia makan2 kt kfc balik2 sampai kt kolej dah maghrib. Lepak2 tengah tunggu yana lepas panjat pagar,nampak pulak kereta mama(pengetua k11). Ak tak tahu la if mama nampak ke x tapi memang aku cuak gila sampai ak kat blok d tingkt 4 boleh pergi menapak tangga kat blok 1 dari tingkat 1. Perghh,gila2. Kat bawah ni coursemate ak yg semua ngidam nk makan kfc. Skali chinese pun skali. LOL.

Budak CC 1st year.

Geng ak sekarang, Iffah(MOTIfah), Intan(Berlian), Ati(Melati), Yaya(Dahlia), Yana n Farah. Sekarang ni, dah campur Bart n Nya. Dua2 otak mental memang masuk gila dengan kiterang. Im really enjoying my life in UPM. Aku just harap kawan2 jugak,harap akademik ak sukses macam kat matriks dulu. Ak hampir gila buat programming tapi because this is the path that i choose i gonna rock programming world and one day become, Dr Ir. Zahrina. Friends lets pray for our succes okay!
Muahxx.
T8 k,till then

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Happily Ever After??


Salam.


Tadi baru lepas menonton filem Lagenda Budak Setan dengan adik-beradik aku. Ceritanya overall aku rasa okay. Cuma aku rasa Ayu cepat sangat suka kat Kasyah. Terlalu cepat sangan jalan cerita dia. Plot-plot penting dalam novel sebenar macam ada yang tertinggal. Hahaa.. Lagi satu yang aku bengang camera-shot dia yang terlalu fokus pada muka. Habis nampak lubang-lubang kat muka (Aku bajet muka licin). Bak kata Kakyong n Nazirah, pemandangan sekeliling pun cantik tapi fokus sangat kat muka kan. Macam skrin kamera tu kecil bagai. Hahaa..

Tapi itu bukan fokus aku, aku nak cakap pasal Happily Ever After. Exist ke,wujud ke? Aku selalu tengok couple merata berpegang-pegang tangan, peluk, buat aksi konon-konon nak menunjukkan kasih sayang diaorang. Mungkin cara diaorang nak ekspresi sayang dan cinta. Aku tak tahu sejak bila aku rasa takut nak bercouple. Mungkin dari usrah dekat Matriks dulu. Aku pernah bercouple tapi tak pernah berdating. Aku jalan dua orang dengan lelaki tu pernah. Tapi aku keluar dengan laki tu pun atas dasar kawan. Aku tau kita diharamkan keluar berdua-duaan tanpa ditemani mahram. Aku kesal sangat dengan apa yang aku buat. Tapi kadang-kadang keinginan itu tak dapat dikawal. Dengan kawan-kawan sekeliling yang bergaul bebas dengan lelaki. Serabut!!

Terima kasih pada Zamri yang bagi inspirasi pada aku. Dia tanya kau ni asyik-asyik skandal je bila nak serious. Aku terus balas aku nak serious terus kahwin. Tak payah nak couple dating2 ke. Halal terus. Idea yang drastik. Memang gila bagi orang zaman sekarang. Aku pun ada perasaan nak ada berpunya nak disayangi. Semua2 lah. Tapi sebab perasaan aku benci, takut pada lelaki menghalang perasaan nak berpunya tu. Aku terfikir if kita couple bukan ada ikatan sah dari segi Islam dan undang-undang.

Dari segi Islam, kita lagi menambahkan dosa apabila berdua-duaan kerana yang pastinya yang ketiganya adalah syaitan.

Katakanlah kepada orang laki-laki yang beriman: "Hendaklah mereka menahan pandanganya, dan memelihara kemaluannya; yang demikian itu adalah lebih suci bagi mereka, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang mereka perbuat".(30) Katakanlah kepada wanita yang beriman: "Hendaklah mereka menahan pandangannya, dan kemaluannya, (31) An Nuur : 30-31

Yang aku dapat tafsir dari sini kita patut menjaga pandangan apabila kita bersam yang berlawanan jantina supaya tak menimbulkan perasaan lain. Bila dah bercinta dan bercouple, mestilah nak berpandang-pandang.

Dari segi undang-undang pulak, aku terfikir lepas kita putus bukan boleh claim semua barang yang kita kasi. Ala-ala nak tuntut nafkah sepencarian. (Apa yang aku merapik ni XD). Senang cakap perasaan suka itu memang ada as fitrah dalam diri tapi aku cuba kawal. Aku cuba kawal perasaan.

Laz skali, sebab aku tak mahu bercouple sebab aku masih tak jumpa laki yang memahami aku. Aku dah penat asyik memahami orang lain. Aku masih tak jumpa laki or orang yang aku boleh percaya seratus-peratus.( p/s: aku ada trust issue. thanx to dat particular someone) Aku tak ready.

Wslm.
Yang baik itu datang dari Allah, yang buruk itu datang dari Allah juga tapi bersandarkan atas kelemahan saya sendiri~